Its kinda amazing about what happen last night, or should I say yesterday ?
The day when I think that I am gonna mess up again, and losing everything. The day that I simply challenge myself and asking God, that I am not gonna get back into the same circle again.
Yesterday, I think that I am not gonna make it, and the terror will be started because there is also some loan that due soon. But, everything is pay off, and I really never expect that in may ways. Its happen, like miracle and I know deep down, everything is because God is good.
Last night, I started to pay bit by bit some people, especially my sibling, who is really mean and telling every family about what I am done and asking lately. I know she blocking my WA, so when I starting to send her DM in IG and I know she read it.
I dont know what is gonna happen, but I really wish that I can pay her off sooner. I also hope that I am wise enough to do some living, prepare food, do things at home good, and I really wish that I can pay off everything bit by bit, rebuild my life and make my old parent proud.
Dad is little mad and sensitive this morning, which make me really hate that but I try not to think about it too much. I starting to write in brother computer when he went off to work, and I really wish that bit by bit, I can buy some more things that I needed.
Right now, I wish nothing but to have a peaceful day and pay daily everyone. May God bless the rest. I really dont want to get back to the day when I am begging for help and find out that nobody is really there to help. In this bottom line, I really want to get up and one day, I am gonna be back on my track.
