Little by little, step by step and bit by bit. Its gonna be a long way to go, but as long as I keep doing it slowly and wisely, with faith, I believe that I am gonna make it in the end. Because, there is nobody anymore to help, and God will be my only guideness.
Nothing special happen, but sure, greedy really kill me. I am not gonna do that anymore, and walking slowly like turtle, doesnt mean that I can finish too. Its not the race with people, its the race with my self, to heal, to be better.
Many people, or almost all of my friend look down at me. They’re refuse to help, and even to reply the help asking, they also refuse. Maybe its because I am do that in my past, and I hope my past be my great lesson to make a better me in future.
I just wish a simple life, when I can buy food and take my mom out. I am riding motorcycle and I am not sad because I dont have car, I am sad because in my mom old day, she still riding motorcycle with me.
The time when I have a car and I am rarely take her out, its be my biggest regret until to day, but I am not gonna let that make me down. Sometimes, as human, regret come and we also know that we cant change the past. I choose to live with it, and try my best to make it happen once again.
Its not gonna be easy, but I also cant go back. The only way is to keep walking foward, but this time ? I am not walking alone. I am walking with God, that hold me by my right hand, and I know, even its not gonna be a easy way, I know God will guide me through it all.
2 day to get 100, and I really wish I am not get blocked after I am paying that. Wish I can keep using it, and this time, I wish God grand me wishes, so I can choose and take every step wisely.
