Easter is here !
After 3 day, Jesus rise. And all human is already paid off. Setiap manusia dibayar lunas, and that is why we all are belong to Jesus.
Dihari Kamis putih, hari dimana aku kehilangan harapan dan merencanakan kematian di hari Minggu, menjadi hari aku dibantu oleh salah satu orang yang aku baru kenal. Its not because that person is kind, its because God help me, melalui dia.
Good Friday, the day when Jesus die and now Sunday, 3 day after He die, He life again. Even that I have no idea about how my life is gonna be, what is gonna happen next and how my mess up life become a miracle life, I believe that God will help me get through all of it.
Yesterday, I have a ride with my mom. Seketika hari hujan, dan entah kenapa aku memutuskan untuk singgah disalah satu rumah kosong. Padahal ketika turun, aku tahu lantai itu bakalan licin, and benar saja, mamaku terpeleset ketika berusaha naik.
Hatiku and jantungku berasa terhenti seketika. Ditengah lebatnya hujan, mamaku berusaha keras untuk bangun, dan aku tidak bisa melakukan banyak hal. I am froze like, oh God, what is gonna happen, what is gonna happen.
Sampai ada pria yang berlari datang dan membantuku. Then he come back after rain is stop and help us take my mom down. Kedua lututnya terluka, dan tangan kirinya terkilir. Sungguh menyakitkan melihat hal tersebut, and I am doing nothing. Its sad, and its kill me.
Also, how brother saying rude word again and again because I am asking him to pay internet bill this month. He dont help and dont care at all anymore. I dont know can I survive the day if I am paying that, but I believe that whatever I do, God will help me out. God will heal me.
Right now, I wish nothing but may God bless every step that I do. I am mess up, I am beyond from human help. But still, in God eyes, I am berharga. Let everything happen and keep praying. Because in the right time, the Lord will make it happen.
Its sad, its hard. Its mess up and its hopeless. But I do believe that no matter how hard it is, I am gonna surviving. I am gonna alive, because God already paid my life with His blood. I am gonan make it.
