What is gonna happen next? I think, this is my very last journey and no more.
I just make it a little longer, when I know what is the ending. I just try to stay for a while, while I know that I am not gonna make it.
Chance by chance, in the end, there is nothing left. There is nobody there.
I put all my hope in God, but I know that there is nothing I can do anymore except hope for miracle to happen.
Well, I am wonder what waiting me in the end of this turnel. I am losing hope, I put my dream in grave. I am so mess up, and there is nothing that can fix me to be whole again.
I drink a lot of pill, try to make myself OD but I still wake up in the morning.
I am so ashame, I felt useless and my future seem so dark. When there is a little light come, I broke it again and again, until I am no longer have a light in this turnel.
Dear God, I am lose all my life into the darkness. I am tired, I am hopeless, I just want it to be end.
I have a lot of debts, I have no saving, I have no friend.
I cant talk to my family, I have nothing to sell anymore.
I am mess up, I wreck my own life into piece.
More I try to make it good, more I feel broke.
I spend my day without any essen of life anymoe.
People avoid me, my family scare of me too.
Dear God, I am wonder, how I can still survive ?
Am I gonna pass to be 33 ?
I am wonder, is that gonna be a hope and miracle anymore ?
I have nobody, there is also nothing left.
People talk about me, avoid me too.
I am scare, I dont know which way to take anymore.
I am old, in the mid age of life.
I have no home, no car, no job, no income, no friend, nothing to sell.
I have a lot of debt, which I am wonder how I can pay it back too.
My dad is old, my mom is lovely but dont know what happen.
My bro ? I make him suffer enough.
What left then ?
I am tired, and its seem better to take off this life.
Dear God, please forgive me for everything.
I lve you, I am not losing my faith in you, but ..
I really dont see any way out anymore too.
