Be thankful, be grateful.
Many people hate me, some of them scare of me.
I hate myself, but all I can do is keep going.
Until the very end, until I cant do it anymore.
When I am ready to give up, there is always a new chances.
I am the one who broke my own promise,
I am the one who keep repeat the same mistake,
I am the one who kill and ruin my own future.
No matter how hard I try to earn some,
I always lose everything in the end.
I am not learn, I am not calm.
I broke my own rule, I put my life into this mess.
I try to get out,
But I just keep drown deeper and deeper.
I am tired of my ownself.
I am tired, and hate and hate and hate.
God always help me with unexpected way.
God may be mad at me, because I keep mess up everything.
I am not calm,
I keep repeat my mistake,
I mess up my ow life.
Its always me, who create this chaos.
So many chance that God always give me,
I am so thankful because of it.
Its always me, who mess up again and again.
Its always me, who broke her own rule.
I am stubborn, not learn and not calm.
I made the same mistake everyday.
I keep repeat the same pattern, again and again.
Its always me, its always be me.
I am ruin my own life,
and I am wonder, why God still protect me.
God hug me, help me, listen to me and never tired about me.
God, never give up on me.
Because its always me.
