Being ignore by family, try to text him again and again.
Wanna come to mom hometown, I am so lazy to meet them.
For mom sake, I should do it.
Wish everything can be better.
I hate myself, and what I am doing.
Really want to fix it, even I am fail again and again.
Mess up and feel so tired.
Wish I am gonna be OK in future.
Fix the problem, make them proud of me.
Sit here, looking at my stand.
Nobody to talk, sit, read and watch all day.
Scare about future, but dont want to lose hope.
Not gonna be easy, but keep trying.
I dont want to keep fail and fall.
No ! I will make it.
Keep try, keep learning.
This time, I promise myself to do better.
