Been so long, after my final road trip.
Didnt want to stay, but I cant go anymore.
Stay strong, because this is life.
A real life that I never expected.
Back home after spending 2 month outside.
Finding my dog was dead.
Finding my turtle was dead too.
and more worse is, I am losing time to be with my mom.
She is sick, didnt remember me anymore.
People call it old sickness, some call it crazy.
For me, she just not her.
She didnt want too, but her brain damage her pretty much.
Its been 2 week.
Stay home, try to company her even she didnt know what she saying.
She scream, she didnt eat, and she didnt bath.
I am losing time, cant go back and full of regret lately.
Sick mom, madness dad.
A lot of personal problem too.
I am wonder, how I can keep survive until today ?
Poor mom, she not herself anymore.
Spending time at home.
I going out for coffee and read book for my own sanity.
I am take some event, just to relax my mind.
I am wonder, what is gonna happen next ?
I am losing time, a lot.
Also, I learn a lot from that time.
While my time passed, while everything broke into pieces.
Cant put it back, but I can learn from it.
I am losing time, while I am trying to make a living.
I am fail and fall into the ground.
Live in past, try to get out and make peace with it.
I am losing time, but I learn a lot from it.
