Life is beautiful, isnt it ?
We find a lot of new people, we eat what we like, we play, sing, dance.
We try to look alive, while we are dying from inside.
We smile, while trying to hide our pain.
Turning into new level, new age that I never expected.
My life change, a lot.
Spending 3 years and lose everything, now I am wonder.
How I can still alive until today ?
I got early present in my birthday.
Not about to tell a sad story, this one doesnt sad but hurt.
My dog was die, my turtle also die.
And what sad me a lot is my mom sick, and we only stay at home, without dare to go to hospital.
I am mess up, a lot.
Again and again, like.. I am never learn.
Now I am wonder, how I can survive this one ?
Do you wonder too ?
Have nobody, have nothing.
Still breathing, because I am scare to end this life.
What I believe inside is,
When I know one person can help me solve all my problem, how about God that create and have everything ?
I am still breathing, I am still surviving.
Not because I am strong, but because I have God.
I dont know about my future anymore, I dont know what I am gonna do too.
All I wanted is mom get well, and I can fix my problem, also start all over again.
Is that too hard to ask for ?
Staying strong each day, I am tired of it.
But, I dont want to give up yet.
I believe in God, and I keep doing what I am doing.
I am wonder, where it could take me ?
Ask me about my life, I feel a lot.
A pain, a suffer, a madness.
Now I am wonder,
Why I can smile after what I am been through ?
Because, I believe that everything have a reason.
I am good, to be great.
Its the matter of time, because..
All the pain that I felt right now,
Is my weapon to be better in future.
