I like to write, I like to share my feeling.
Some people say I am fake it.
For me, this is my feeling.
I personally didn’t know about it too.
I think a lot, I hurt a lot too lately.
I care a lot, I hurt more than before.
I want to fix my mistake, but I create another one.
I am all alone, try to survive until today.
I cry before sleep, I cry while write this poet.
I think my tear is drying, but its not.
I think someone who already forget me.
More I care, more I get hurt in the end.
I am tired, I want to be loved.
I am afraid of losing friend.
I try my best to keep them, I try really hard.
In the end, they just gone.
I didnt realize that I offer a lot, and I hurt a lot in the end.
I didnt choose this, but this is me.
I want a little sleep, but I cant have it.
My home, supposed to be a place that I can sleep well.
But, I dont have it.
Then I went to coffeeshop.
Sit there alone, and close my eyes for a while.
I sleep in that place, and it feel sad and also lonely.
I have nobody but God beside me.
He always listen to me, never complain.
I cry, asking the same things over and over and over everyday.
Yet, I keep make mistake.
But He let me live, He show me miracle around.
I want to be heal, I want to be better.
I think she is the last person for me, but she is not.
She become the one who hurt me a lot, more than other.
Now I realize, I should forgive her.
I dont want to lose hope.
I want to fix myself, and my problem.
In my lonely time, in my hard time.
I know that God love me.
Because, He always save me in unexpected way.
