Life change, a lot.
What is good, what is not.
Enjoy the pain, keep repeating the same mistake.
I am wonder, why I still alive ?
So tired, nobody to talk.
Didn’t want to asking help anymore.
I am wonder, am I gonna make it ?
Home is not like home.
It was a mad house with complete family inside.
Didn’t want to listen, all the rude word, all the pain.
I am wonder, how long until it end ?
Have a place to run into.
A place that quiet for a while.
Now it was gone, everything is gone.
I am wonder, am I really mess up ?
Have someone I used to talk before.
Telling her how I feel and get jealous sooner.
Make her scare, and left me, then cut me off.
I am wonder, why it feel really hurt ?
Want it to be end.
Never doubt about how great my God.
Trust in His time, even it is so long.
I am wonder, how many sins that I made this far ?
I can survive each month.
That is more than enough.
How many miracle happen, I can’t recall it all.
I am wonder, am I already thankful enough ?
Broken home, broken friendship.
Everyone scare of me, and some left me.
Pretend to be OK, pretend to be fine.
I am wonder, can I pretend any longer ?
I hate myself, I dont even know why.
I really tired, I want to stop breathing.
I don’t choose to be this way, but here I am.
I am wonder, can I be better in future ?
or .. In another life ?
