Sitting there almost everyday,
Drink coffee or tea, but its little different.
Didnt bring any tab, didnt use any laptop,
Just my phone with a small keyboard to type.
3 years passed, my life didnt be better.
I make a lot of new problem, make everyone around me feeling sad.
Lose everything, try really hard to get up again and again.
But most painful things is, this heart.
Didnt know what happen, it just sad.
Everytime I hear a chat come, I feel wonder and wonder and wonder.
What happen, why I wanna know about that ?
Why its feel so hurt ?
Try to understand this own feeling,
I cant get what I wanted that easy right ?
A lot of things happen, wanna break it up, giving her everything.
Then she cry, she cry really hard and I just dont understand why its hurt.
She is good, always listening, and become a good support system for me.
Sometimes I am mad, but in the end, I just want to make up and hug her.
Everytime I imagine what might happen,
Everytime I imagine she is with other,
Its hurt, so much.
Wait for the right time,
I make a promise to my ownself.
If the time come, I will tell everything.
I dont know what might happen, but I decided to be honest with my ownself.
What is mine, will be mine.
Its not the time yet.
I will wait, and be patient.
Its feel like a exam, while I am wait and prepare myself, she will be with other. I dont know, but I am prepare myself for the worse.
Believe everything happen for the reason,
Believe all things around me is a lesson.
Keep do good, keep be good.
Didnt want to force everything, just let it flow.
Because what is mine, will find their way to get me.
I know that because I truly believe that, everything happen has their own reason.
