Spending a lot of time to pretend,
To be someone different because I am so lonely.
Wanna give up, be friend with someone who is cold,
Real me ? Not giving up so easy.
If she ask me to stop, or say..
That she dont wanna see me again, dont wanna be friend with me anymore,
I will do that.
As long as not saying that,
I am still become me, real me.
I know that I may be over for something,
I just wanna know, because I think that I care.
She hate me and scare about me because of that ?
Well, I cant force her to think differently.
This is a real me,
A real me that scare to losing someone.
Wonder why she is patient and I am patient too.
Maybe we are not mean to be each other friend ?
It was sad, I dont know how to express it.
Feeling different day by day, never asking back about me.
Become the one who always asking and talking,
Really sad, didnt know if I wanna live or not anymore.
A real me,
A real me that wanna stop all of this feeling.
Stop caring, stop talking and stop asking.
I am that bad ??
Well, life teach me to never expect anything.
Special person like me, its just a big dream.
Nobody know how I feel, nobody care what I am doing.
Its just me, try to be a good friend, always asking.
I am tired,
I am so tired.
The real me wanna scream out loud.
Cry every day, every night.
The real me, is really tired.
