It was my first time that I can scream in front of people.
Show my truth feeling and weakness.
Cry out loud in my way.
Walking in night, spending time alone.
I was wrong when I think she call because she care.
She call because all she care is the letter to the school.
Having a nightmare, mom got sick.
Went to hospital, try to using a free pass but I am disappointed.
Wishing that mom gonna be OK.
Didn’t know what to do,
Having a lot in my mind.
Feeling sad and all alone, didnt know what to do and who to trust.
Scream it out, because she is super ego.
I dont know why I can be like that.
I kinda hate my ownself by doing that.
I dont know how to feel anymore, nobody there and nobody care.
If only I have a lot of money.
If only I am successful.
People run away when I am fall,
People scare of me, and just some of them that really stay.
Well, maybe we will not speak again.
Maybe we just working and do a job for lex ?
I dont know and I dont want to expect anything else anymore.
Again and again, I am all alone.
Happy for a while, thinking she was care about me.
All she care is the letter, that I am not sending.
Its OK.
Its gonna be fine too.
Maybe right now is the right time to end everything ?
I am already lose a lot, and lose one more didnt hurt me a lot, right ?
Screaming out on people for the first time,
Is that really matter in the end ?
