It was hard, it shouldn’t be like that.
Its new year, nothing was change.
Everything still the same, the sad, the crazy and the pain.
When it will be gone ?
The fight, the scream.
Feel unlove, feel sad, everything just keep repeating.
It was hard, to understand and to be chill.
All is wrong, all is pain and madness.
The peace, the laugh.
Never got it, no matter how hard I pray and wish.
Is that the end ?
Am I the one who went crazy by all of this drama ?
It was hard, to keep smile.
It was hard, to keep it all for myself.
It was hard, to be OK anymore.
I am lost, in time and in love.
Try to block all the negative, try hard to not listening.
Pretend there is just a story, but I am on the edge of my limit.
Wanna scream, wanna said it all out.
Didn’t know how to handle it, didn’t know how to end it.
People see me perfect.
People see me have a great life.
Deep inside, I am broken.
Deep inside, I am just a child who need a love and hug.
Sitting there, pretend nothing happen.
Watch my movie, write my drama.
Am I gonna be OK ?
Am I gonna stay sane ?
Tired and sad.
It was hard, feel this feeling since I was a kid.
Still the same, nothing change.
No matter how hard I pray, is that it ?
Where is the miracle then ?
