Sleeping fast, waking soon.
Mind can’t find a peace while sleeping.
Even in dreamland, feel like I am awake the whole night.
My eyes close, my mind is wondering around.
Curious what will happen next, a heart still beating fast.
Can’t wait what will come to find me, prepare for everything.
I was scare, but I didn’t have a choices anymore.
I am drown but I won’t let the water killing me.
100+ day passed, still didn’t believe I still standing strong.
It was just some of another day, another patient and another hope.
Let the time heal, let the time give me a answer.
I want to be better, and I will.
Always love the part of making some poetry, keep my mind thinking and busy.
Keep me alive, even the poet was sad to be read.
Stop for a while, I don’t allow my self to be happy for more than 100+ day.
Now I am back, be ready to whatever will happen next.
It may be worse, it may be better, it may just a normal day.
I don’t know whatever it is, but I know that I must be strong.
I willing my self to be happy, I put my worries in trash.
I spend enough day in grieve and scare.
Now I want to be happy and I will !
100+ day,
Thank for giving me enough time to think and regret.
I know that it was stupid and not wise enough, but at least I try.
Put my self together, think the bright side and now I am back.
I am a woman who try to find her true happiness in a hopeless place.
