She read it and she know that she still alive.
This day was special to her, she turn into her 30.
She never imagine that her life will be falling apart like now, but she survive.
She can ignore a lot of thing and pretend to be OK this whole time, she is strong enough to handle her own problem and hide her truth feeling.
She never know that she will make a grave like that.
If she can ready this, she know she already survive and the fight is still long.
She want to start all over, she try to put herself together, forgive herself and promise to be better in future.
She didn’t want any of this, she can’t fix it because she didn’t know who can help her.
She only have herself, and the only gift that she got is “she can be strong”
Strong enough to keep breathing,
Strong enough to walk again until the strom,
Strong enough to make decision and take the punishment,
Strong enoug to start all over again.
Because, when she read this, she know that God is really love her and give her another chances to be better and never do the same mistake again.
She didn’t know how long she can be strong, but she never give up.
She think and think and think.
She work hard to fix it but in some point, she got tired.
She fight alone, didn’t know who will listen or who wouldn’t.
She is 30,
Never been happier and always working hard to get something that she liked.
Try to make another people happy, didn’t know how to be happy.
She is change now, she love herself more than anyone else.
She put herself together and be strong once again.
She can pass it, because she know that she can.
