People always say to keep calm and be patient apapun masalah yang sedang dihadapi. Semua hal memiliki masa and tingkat kesulitannya sendiri, Ketika mengalami sebuah masalah, tetap bersabar and selalu doakan yang terbaik agar kita tetap kuat ketika menghadapi masalah tersebut.
Also, dont forget to always be thankful whatever your problem karena setiap masalah yang diberikan itu gak bakalan melebihi batas kemampuan kamu.
I have a lot of problem and it hurt so much each day. I pretend to didn’t care and keep calm but each day, the problem is always repeat the same and as human being, I cant keep calm and pretend that it was OK. It’s hurt like hell and telling what I feel didn’t fix my problem too.
My heart feel so broken but the problem is also the part of my life. Never imagine it would be like that but it is happen.
Am I ready to face it ?
Am I adult enough for that ?
Am I calm and patient enough to face the fact ?
No, I am not actually.
But, no matter how ready I am, or no matter how I prepare my self for the worst, I just can’t take it anymore. Its hurt and there is nothing I can do except pray for the best.
I have one friend to share and I have this page for me too.
I don’t expect much, but as long as I can freely talking in this page, aku merasa kalau bebanku sedikit berkurang and it is good. Meskipun beban itu tidak hilang begitu saja, setidaknya aku merasa bahwa I am gonna be OK and I can pass it.
The last time my mom get out from hospital, semua hal yang menyangkut tentang dirinya terasa berubah. She can’t be positive anymore and she always blame everyone around her. Memang benar harus sabar, but when we hear the same negative thing again and again every day, how you feel about it ? It drive me crazy if I can be honest here.
I pretend to didn’t listen and didn’t care but… I am weak and I am a human that need a peace and harmony home.
I feel like … You know ? Someone in broken home family.
There is a lot of love for me and there is also a lot of hate inside my heart. I hate to not being patient enough and I hate my self every time I heart what my mom say. I didn’t show it because I know it just useless, I can’t say it out loud except keep it because she will be sad and all I can do is keep calm until I cannot.
I don’t know what is best for me, it didn’t matter anymore because all I say to her is also useless. Selain keras kepala, dengan daya ingat yang terbatas, my mom always play like a victim, blame everyone around her and make us like a criminal.
I just… didn’t know what is best right now but I know for sure, no matter how bad it is, I must keep calm and hoping everything will be OK.
I never stop believe that I can pass it and I believe that what my mom feel itu sepenuhnya bukan kemauan dirinya juga. Just really need someone to talk and share and pray for her.
