When we see other people life, so often we think that they are really happy or they are having a better life than us.
We get jealous and think that world isn’t fair. We start to blame God and everyone around us because we just see them from the outside, not how they really feel about their ownself.
I always meet people that have a much better life than me to be honest. I think they already get everything in their life and I blame them when I see them never be thankful for what they have. I always think that life isn’t fair and why I must be the one who try really hard to get something that I really wanted this whole life.
But, more I grow more I know that what inside my head is different.
When I get jealous about other people life, I forget that there is also some people who wanna to be in my position. Even I put a high wall to protect the real me, I know that some people still want to be with me because I look so happy and funny all day.
But deep inside ? Nobody know because I never let everyone dig deeper.
So, I start to change my mind and feel less jealous when I see other people life. Maybe they have a better life than me, they are happy and get what they wanted. They are happy ! But, are they ?
When we see someone is really happy, it doesn’t mean that they’re happy “happy”.
They just really good at hiding a real feeling because inside the happy face, there is a lot of tear that already dry.
Let me tell you some short story about Cani, the girl who look so happy and have a perfect life outside but deep inside ? She just a little girl who need someone to hug her tight. There is a lot of untold story behind the smile face and there is a lot of question about her life that she have no choices but to follow.
If you never have a choice to choose something in your life, what would you do ?
Become a traitor ? A good follower ? or try to do something that you love no matter how mad your family would be ?
It’s a hard choice, especially when you have nothing and nobody was there to support you, right ?
All you can do is follow it, try to be happy and live with it, right ?
Cani having a perfect life, at least in some people eyes.
She just have some friend and now she is working on company. She doesn’t want to do it but… Life force her to have a job because the Covid is never end.
She just a happy and perfect person in the office and everybody who see her will say that she have a perfect life.
One day, someone meet her and they become friend lately.
It is took a time because Cani never open up about everything. She never tell a story about her personal life and she pretend that she is happy, just like who she was and what people say about her.
This person, who want to know her more never think that Cani is happy. All she know is that Cani is a lonely girl, like she was too.
Because of loneliness and some things, they become friend quickly. They talk about job, some personal stuff and sometimes they went out and grab dinner together.
More they spend time together, more she know that Cani is not a perfect person like what people say. Cani is not happy but she never have a choice her whole life.
It is painfull and it was sad but it also true.
Never have a choice since you are a kid ?
Cani not telling her everything but from that piece of story, she know exactly what Cani feel deep inside. Hide behind her fake smile and perfect life, Cani is just a broken girl like she was but the different is, she have a choice and Cani didn’t. Which one getting hurt more ?
Which one has a great damage ?
After knowing some of that half true, not even a half if she can tell. She just decided to be friend with Cani. She want to know more about Cani even she know that one day, she will get hurt.
She just think Cani is a lonely girl like she was when she was young and all she can do is try to be with Cani if she let her do that too.
We never know about someone life if we never look deeper.
So often, we believe what we saw from the outside, too lazy to see the truth and too scare to ask more quetions.
We guess, we put a result and we judge them later. It just what we are and how thing never getting any better around us.
Judge, never look deeper and never asking.
She just hope that she can know Cani more and still be friend with her too.
Even that mean she must spend a lot of time to help Cani, she just willing to do that because deep down, she know how it feel when we have nobody on ourside and when we didn’t have any choices at all.
Just follow where it led us and die…..
