Aware of what happen lately, didn’t know how to put it all into a word or poet.
Didn’t want to write anything anymore, because there is always someone who getting hurt by it.
Spending the afternoon all alone, sitting with black coffee without any sugar or milk inside.
Feel bitter, like the feeling inside.
Even once a week, there is a little happiness for me.
Now it just gone, didnt have any chances to do something like that anymore.
She gone, even just for company.
Knowing that would happen, it just too fast and I can’t accept it.
Didn’t want to push back, didn’t want to make it look like a mistake.
Keep moving foward, even now everything is just a empty shell.
Lose a best friend, lose a partner in crime in every situasion.
Just because I started to make a new friend, without care the reason.
Didn’t want to look selfish, even tough I miss that.
Didn’t want to ruin a friendship, but now it all gone.
Am I a selfish one ?
Am I the one who in pain or otherwise ?
My eyes wanna close, my mind can’t think straight.
Try to sleep well and take care of myself, because everything just back to the time when I was young.
Nobody there when I need them the most,
Nobody listen when I wanna to talk my story,
Nobody care about what happen, because I always look happy in the face.
I am just a empty shell, looking for someone who will understand.
I am just a empty shell, that falling deep into the hole.
I am just a empty shell, waiting someone come and understand the beauty inside.
I am just a empty shell, in the place where nobody will looking.
Sand around me, water hide me deep inside in the ocean.
