A coffee in the afternoon,
Sitting in front of my computer and thinking about something to write.
Order a cold coffee,
Like a heart that going to be dark in nowhere.
The sun come out after the hard rain,
The weather become warm and the rainbow start to show up in nowhere.
The ice start to melt and mix their self with coffee.
The sweet was gone and left no trace.
Try pretty hard to close heart,
Pretend that the heart didn’t have any feeling anymore.
Too scare to start something,
Too scare to get hurt again.
Sitting in nowhere, pretend to be happy and not lonely.
While other people smile and laugh together,
Keep sitting and focus in my book,
Pretend that was OK even the feeling is really mess inside.
Keep everything all inside,
Too scare to share and open up again.
Keep the feeling in the prison of heart,
Build a high wall and never let anyone come inside.
Find someone to cheer a day,
Find someone to have a stupid chit chat,
Find someone that can kill the whole lonely time,
Find someone that can make we laugh again.
Wanna break the wall, try to let someone get inside.
Didn’t know what to trust and what to believe, too scare that things will be different.
Try to be real, like I see myself in mirror at the morning.
Wanna break free, wanna be my whole self.
Just a little monkey in the cage for the long time,
Too scare to see outside even the chain already broken.
Didn’t want to get hurt for something that I didn’t know for sure,
Because life is already cruel and the wall is already high enough to protect me inside.
