Feel so wonder about what she already saying lately, that she was mad, that she was angry.
That she will no longer in this place and doing this job anymore.
I felt pity for her, I try to support her as best as I can.
But, it look like she also enjoy it and ready to stab me in my back.
Let the time passed in working place, try to enjoy and didn’t care a lot anymore.
Try my best to hide my feeling, try really best before I am really leave.
There is just one thing that make me still in there, one thing that I think .. I dont understand.
A thing that I am pretty sure can changes everything, or ruin anything.
Keep my best to accept the new rule, keep everything inside my smile.
Wanna scream it out loud, but didn’t want to make any scene that I know it was useless in the end.
Try to accept it without any complain, try to understand and stay positive.
Because I still believe that everything will be great in the end.
Nothing will last forever, every up will be down.
When we are in the bottom, there is just one way to go.
It was GOING UP.
But, if we already in the sky, there is just one choices.
GO DOWN or STAY THE SAME.
Nobody can guess what the future is…
She look really enjoy the job, make it like a part of her life right now.
I am keep wonder and thinking, what she been up to this far ?
She took my job, she pretend like she hate it.
And she enjoy it like there is only her in this place.
Burn me into madness but I keep calm and pretend it was OK.
Didn’t want to think the bad part, try to understand how she feel.
When she just stab me in future, maybe it was a signal for me to ending thing.
Didn’t want to mad at something that I just see but didn’t understand,
Because my life is too precious.
Didn’t want to spend it with madness all day.
It was toxic, it was a never ending problem.
It was .. something that I should deal with in future.
In the end of day, there is always a choices.
To stay and burn or to leave and find a peace.
