Try to be patient, try to be kind.
Try to be myself, even I am about to lose it all.
Didn’t know which way to go, didn’t know what to do next.
Too much pressure, too much pain and problem.
Try to keep all my feeling inside, didn’t know which one to trust.
Try to be positive, even there is a lot of problem come and go each day.
Some easy things, some simple act.
Is that really wrong just because I want to be kind ?
Try to put my self together, didn’t want to make any scene or create problem.
Didn’t want to join the drama, didn’t want to be a part of that series.
Didn’t want to hurt my self, even the feeling is little different.
Didn’t want to wish much for something that still grey.
There is a lot, a lot of thing going on with my self.
Feel different lately, didn’t know what happen.
Too much problem, too much pressure, too much drama.
Can’t put it away anymore, because all I see is my self, all alone in this hole.
Didn’t know who is really want be my friend, didn’t know what story to be tell.
People may smile around me, talking some joke, telling some funny liar.
When I get a little comfort, I totally forgot what is going on.
Telling what I feel, didn’t know they will stab me behind.
Too long to be alone, didn’t know what the real anymore.
Being trap in the fake smile, being trap in a fake story.
Try to tell my self that everything is good, that everything is gonna be OK.
But, they just not.
People may use me, people may didn’t see as who I am.
Try to create a high wall, so nobody cant come inside.
Inside, just a rock and sand that I keep all alone this whole time.
There is nothing inside, because I always put a barrier around me.
Look happy, look fun.
I create and make people around me laugh.
Try to hide all my feeling, because nobody really care.
Because nobody was there for me.
