I am drown and drown,
I didn’t know how deep it will be in the end.
I try to get up but nobody there to help me out.
I am all alone, drown in the deep shit.
I try again and again to survive,
All I do is making a same mistake, again and again.
I didn’t know how to tell people,
I didn’t know how to get up anymore.
I wanna break, I wanna find peace.
I need a hand to help me out, but I keep drown because there is no help.
I wanna scream, I wanna cry out loud,
My life end like that, the ending that I never imagine before.
I have nobody to ask,
I didn’t know how to be alright.
I try and try with everything that left in me,
Even I make a deal with devil, I still fight until the end of my breath.
I will break, maybe now but I will break.
I want to survive, I want to have a better life.
I want to become someone good, not someone that make my family disappointed.
I just wanna be normal again.
I cry for help, I cry for mercy.
I wanna get out from this hell but there is nobody there to help me.
I believe in miracle, I believe in God plan,
I wanna try and fight, until there is no way anymore.
I believe that everything have a reason,
I wanna to keep my faith high enough so I can stand.
I wanna be good then great,
I still do what I can at least to help my own self out from this hell.
I may seem stupid, I am stupid.
I never think before I act, and now I try to fix it peace by peace.
I am shy, I am mad, I am all alone.
I wanna cry, really hard.
I feel useless.
i never share my pain, I keep everything inside my heart.
I try to fix my own problem, but I create another problem to fix one.
I wanna change, I want to see a chances.
I try and try, I will fight until the end.
I believe in God, I know he love me even I never notice it.
I went crazy, and I keep my insanity.
I wanna be a better person, I wanna be someone that make my parent proud.
I will fight until I cant fight anymore.
