Well, today was special because 29 year ago, I was born.
So, you all know how old I am and let share some story in here.
Agak menyedihkan sebenarnya ketika menjelang hari ulangtahunmu, hal yang kamu hadapi bukanlah melihat keluargamu yang sibuk menyiapkan suprise or cake.
Gak masalah sih kalau gak dikasih kado or cake, tapi kalau menjelang hari jadi hidupmu, orangtuamu sibuk berkelahi akan hal sepele ?? Bagaimana rasanya yah ??
Sejak kecil, aku memang gak pernah dapat kado or cake dari mama or papa. Hal sesederhana itu saja aku gak pernah dapat, jadi gak perlu berharap bakalan ada acara ultah or sweet 17th gitu dhe yah.
It’s ok for me but…
Sometimes, when I try to be strong more and more, I feel really sad deep and deeper each day.
Back home after work, tired and listen parent fight and yell to each other. Its killing me slowly but surely.
They fight everyday. Can you ever imagine it ?
They didnt want divorce but they choose to fight. For small into big things.
Pada keras kepala sehingga tidak ada seorangpun yang mengalah.
Bedanya, yang satu kasar, yang satu gak mau ngalah.
As a kid ??
Its so sad and make me feel really bad.
Its a shame to share it but I just want to let you know. When you have a same situasion and problem, you’re not alone.
Then,
If you ask me what special on my born day ?
There is nothing.
Maybe just some cake or little treat from friend.
I really didnt want people to sing a song for me.
Ask me to blow cake, and things like that.
All I want is 1 quiet and peace day at home.
Parent that didnt fight !
Is that really hard to asking for ???
I dont know because I dont know what is peace anymore in here.
I didnt wish for anything in my life.
But, a peaceful family is much better than have a lot of money in pocket.
It was sad actually,
It a deep pain in heart but what I can do except let God work in family ??
He loves me more than I know,
And all I wishes in this years is a peaceful day without listen to any fight about small things.
Just a small peace will be nice for me.
Truly, I never ask anything anymore than that.
Happy born day, to my self !
Keep strong and stay positive.
