Its been a pretty long time that I never share any true story in this blog (since I have another things to do)
Hmm..
MIMPI ORANG YANG SUDAH MENINGGAL, PERTANDA APA ?
Nah, ini nih yang sering bangat jadi pertanyaan dalam diri kita.
Pas ada seseorang yang kita sayangi meninggal, terus kita mimpi mereka itu masih hidup and doing something together (actually, when they’re alive, you never doing that), kira – kira maksudnya apa yah ?
Apa karena alam bawah sadar kita rindu sama mereka ?
Apa karena arwah kita saat tidur terbang kedunia mereka ?
Or something else ?
Well,
I didnt know that well. But, when I ask my mom about my dream. She say like that :
MIMPI ORANG YANG MATI ITU HIDUP PERTANDA BAIK.
MIMPI ORANG YANG HIDUP ITU MATI, PERTANDA BURUK DAN JANGAN DICERITAKAN SAMA MEREKA.
Hmm..
Percaya apa enggak, yah sepanjang hari aku merasa mengalami hal baik.
Mungkin karena my luck, or maybe something really good happen to me.
I have my 2nd aunt that die alone in hometown.
Memang sih ketika masa hidup dia, aku tuh gak pernah bener – bener dekat sama dia.
Dia sering kerumah, terus mamaku sering gak bukain pintu pas dia manggi..
Aku sendiri suka sembunyi pas dia datang, karena dia cerewet dan suka bangat komentari aku gitu.
When she getting older,
I feel really pity on them and rasa sayang itu tumbuh begitu besar seiring dengan berjalannya waktu.
Meskipun dia tinggal dipanti dan spending her day alone, rasanya sedih bangat kalau aku flashback lagi kemasa itu.
Minum kopi sendirian sore hari, duduk sendiri sepanjang hari, hingga ketika dia sakit, dia tetap juga sendiri.
What the meaning of life ??
Her husband die soon. She didnt have a kid and she didnt have money.
No one want to take a good care for her and I cant do anything in that momment.
BUT,
I am so thankful I can visit her even for a while and know where she live.
Dia tinggal digereja dan disana dia diberikan perhatian meskipun tidak seutuhnya.
Ketika dia mulai sakit, aku bahkan gak bisa pergi kesana.
And when she die ?
Before she die…
My uncle kindly bring her back to hometown but I just didnt know that they put her in a place that didnt have a roof and let her sleep in there.
She just wake to eat a little then sleep.
And she die..
Alone…
In night…
and we just know from phone the other morning.
Everytimes I flash back into that momment,
When I saw where she sleep.
I feel really mad…
But, I cant do and say anything else because I am nothing too.
Can’t changes anything to help her out.
THEN I DREAM ABOUT HER….
Yeah,
That happen.
We going out,
We eat and she visit me using her sepeda with her black shirt.
That was a happy momment even in the dream.
If dream can be hurt,
I just love to have a dream with her.
And I know that in other side of life, she may miss me too.
So,
When that happen to you,
Believe me !
It’s wonderful experiences and nothing scare or bad will happen to you.
