Life never give us a fair choice.
We must choose one and live with it.
Drop another and never feel regret about it.
Some people feel so easy to be open up with other. Some people love silence because they feel safe when they keep a secret. Some of other just feel sad and keep every pain inside. And when the right time come, they may exploded.
This is the 3rd year that I never get any up from what I already got.
So far, I look so fine with everything around. I try to keep myself good and I try really hard to look OK.
That is my choice because I didn’t have another choices either.
Feel being trap. Nothing to do except agree to everything. Umm.. Almost everything. Because that is life. People never give you a fair choice because there is their world. They make a rule and you must follow it without any questions.
Well, maybe I can get away with that.
But, that is also my choice to stay still and follow that rule.
Even I have a lot of wish and regret all around me.
I can’t do anything except accept it.
Really,
I wish that I will find a better way to make me feel much better.
Each year passed. There is a different difficulty to follow.
But, as long as I make it like a challenges, I can pass it all until the time for me come.
Some people stay because they didn’t have a choices.
Some people keep going because they didn’t have a choices.
Some people walking out because they didn’t find a peace inside anymore.
Some people keep to be strong because there is a lot of things behind their back.
It’s sad,
It was madness.
But, what can you do ??
Just like a opera. We pretend to be happy and make everything look OK.
In the midnight, when we look up on mirror, we find the real us.
This is us, who keep fighting even life isn’t fair.
This is us, who keep standing even our foot wanna falling apart.
This is us, who not lucky like other but still be thankful.
This is us, who keep alive when life throw us a lot of shit.
The real pain is on us.
The real madness is on us.
But, it also us who never try to show it off.
This is also us who always be strong and be kind even our heart is hurt.
