What to say and what to do except still enjoying what I have right now ?
Wanna do a complain ?? Hmmm…
It didn’t work really well because covid is on the road. Can’t force something to make self better but strunggle in same place without any question to ask.
I still wonder, what will happen if the lates letter that I give can’t be return or canceled ? Maybe I still wonder where I wanna go and do to make my self still living and drink some coffee in the sunday.
I am so thankful for that one but still I know that is not the place that I really wanted to spend all of my life. Its kinda look like I didn’t have a great choice and I still can’t imagine why she didn’t call me to the office.
Also, how people lying and didn’t say they dont want me in the first place.
But, that was my fault.
I trust to much to myself and didn’t make sure about everything in the first place.
I am not blaming my self.
I been thinking about what will happen if I got the offer and now I am in a different place ?
Can I still writing ?
Can I still sitting in the afternoon to enjoy some tea ?
Can I walking with mom in sunday morning and eat some noodle ?
Can I back home sooner like usual and …
Can I get a same conditions ??
I know that I am feel so useless and disappointed at first time, but..
There is also something that can make me feel so thankful.
Maybe I didn’t get in because God have other plan for my life.
Maybe it still my lucky charm that I can keep the job as well.
Everything always happen for the good future.
If there was a bad future, there will be a lot of problem and reason that make us cannot get in into something.
Keep thankful because everything will be good.
Maybe I am not in the best place right now, but I know that when I keep doing my best and working hard for my dream, then..
Everything will get paid in the right time.
Never lose HOPE and keep Working on our DREAM !
