Wanna scream, but nobody will listen.
Wanna tell the truth, but scare to hurt somebody.
Keeping all around,
Speak nothing because didnt want to hurt somebody,
Until the day she was die alone with all feeling inside.
Feel like being trap,
Cannot move foward or back,
Just walking in the same place with same feeling.
Being selfish,
But try to understand other selfiness.
Until the hurt feeling become a pain.
Try to be wise,
Let the time passed,
Then the day come again.
The day when she miss something,
Day when she miss someone,
But they’re to busy on their world.
When she was nothing,
There was something that feel like everything.
And now it just gone..
Gone,
By time…
By conditions…
By behavior…
Everything changes,
She try to standup,
Even she will hurt a lot of feeling,
She must stand.
She stand,
Hurting around,
But she just want to standup for her self,
For her own sake.
Everything gone,
Everyone die,
Everything become nothing at all.
She just want to be alone,
Didnt want to care anymore,
Left everything behind, and …
She want to start all over.
The memories,
The time,
The momment…
Everything just gone..
Until there was nothing left,
Until she was a name on phone book,
Until people saw her and didnt talk to her,
She just a person who deserved love too.
She got tired,
Tired for pretending,
Tired to cover everything,
Tired on caring,
Tired … Just tired and want to sleep all day.
Closed her eyes,
Didnt want to listening anymore,
Did want to care,
and…
Didnt want to live.
She just…
Speak up for her self.
Because that is all the matter for her.
SHE JUST HER
