Ruin My Life

So, I am in the point that I didnt longer had anything and anyone anymore. Which I know maybe I really make Merry mad at me for real, and I do know that what I do is not good at all.

At the very least, she become someone who always help me no matter what it is, and suddently seeing her didnt reply me anymore, that is kind of torture, which make me sad and also I understand why she doing that.

Today mom is little error, and yesterday I realize that my brother is so bad to her, slap her, cubit her and I know that is not good but there is nothing that I can say since I didnt had anything at all.
Sadly mom, but what can I do about it ?

I dont know what gonna happen, the work may stop again suddently, and worse than that ?
I may didnt know what to do in my old age, without job, without saving and a debt.

Am I long losing for happiness ?
Since I am the one that ruin my own life ?