Rid of Hyprocrite Roommate !

L finally went out from my room, which bring me a bit in ease but also feel lonely.
I give the cook pad, and asking for food money but it is seem everyone in khmeer is just same.
Glad the hypocrite is gone for good.

Who gonna be my next roommate ?
I hate it here, but .. I also no had idea what to do.
I lose my $450 and now I think almost everyone mad and scare of me as well.

Now the V not wanna talk with me, I dont had anyone to talk too.
L really did his work, huh ?
I had the chat, but I dont know how to do it as well.
Lets the truth come ? It is seem never come.

NT still not delete me, which I really want to talk too.
But, she sure delete all the chat in personal telegram, which make me sad.
I even ask E to send NT as my roommate, which I know it was impossible.

Should I rent outside ?
With my current status, I dont think a lot.

What I am regret the most ? I dont even know right now. Seem like everyone hate me, but, I just dont want to think too much.
Even Lyn not talk much with me, which make me feel more lonely. And beside me, it was D.

Right now, the room is only me. This month is the first time I got $100+ bonus, which make me happy and I am gonna take off in december 25, to celebrate Christmas alone.

As same as before and everyday, I just sit alone, buying cake and coffee and enjoy alone.
I want to talk with NT, but she seem mad and hate me without any reason as well.

What do I need to do now ?
I dont had money, I dont had a friend. Am I suffering for mental illness ?
I am wondering..

Even the person who teach me khmer suddently being cold after what L do, and even my santa that say wanna give me $800. Which I know it was a miracle if happen.
Well, in the end, everyone just gone from my life.

Which wrong which ?
I think, all of this is because of myself too. and someone seem buying food for NT hehe

I miss the day she play with me, the day she joke me.
If I reply nicely, is the story gonna be different ?